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Me & My Loved Ones

2011-08-22T03:30:00.000+08:00

Hello! :)

Nah,it's not my birthday....yet.
My advanced birthday presents!
lols :P
and the super dee duper helium balloon dat Nora gave me! :D
i likeeeeee!

Sun, 21st Aug.
I did smtg to my hair..

I pinned it to the side cos

e fringe look like bangs & i dun want bangs

so while waiting for it to grow, i haf to do that.

Anyways..

this is e scrapbook page dat i did for Nora! :)

This was my very first attempt btw.

Wad do u think?

and this is Ash's.

Now i'm a member of one of the scrapbook shops. hehee.

Anyways, i made them all by myself, with nobody's help.

At first i looked at books for inspiration.

Den i just decided to go with the flow

and did it my way.

I used layers, markers, design papers, alphabet stickers,

pop-up stickers, design masking tapes, rhinestone,

journal tags, photo mats, craft punch, scissors with unique design edges, and photos.

Afra-san! :)

Nora Chong! :)

Ashnarma! :)

Sat, 20th Aug.

Iftar plus Birthday Celebrations get-together

with my girls and my Elfie

at Badoque.

(Afra-17 July, Ash-15 Aug, Nora-26 Aug, Me-29 Aug)

Apparently e surprise was for me & i only found out last min!

Thank u darlings.

The cupcakes were from Sayang & Ash.

Buat orang panic je..

i tot smtg was gg to jump out from the box.

I haf no idea wad i'm doing.. lols.

And Sayang gave me a...

polaroid! :D

Awesome!

Me and Dear..

Me and girlfriends..

Pink's mine, Ash's blue & Nora's white.

They decided to take together so i snapped using my digicam

in the cab.

Thank you all for e gifts & surprises :)

Dear, thanx again for e treat, e polaroid, e cupcakes, e instant films,

e batteries (YES! BATTERIES. rofl. like IKR?)

and... the birthday card! :D

I appreciate everything.

One of the best celebrations ever!

Sun, 14th Aug

TWCD surprised me with a birthday treat at

the SG Flyer! :)

Thank u babes.

And how can i forget the presents

ya'll gave me?

One of them made me go OMG. :P

hehee. *hush hush*

Me, Wan Ting, Yi Ting & Rachel.

Sun, 7th Aug.

Dad's side Iftar at

Kampung Chai Chee Restaurant.

We had 5 round tables and 1 long table.

hahhahhahaha.

Talk about conquer.

Original/authentic

Manchester United jerseys

with names and numbers.

Don't play-play! :P

All thanks to my bro.

My bro, my sis & me

(not standing in birth order :P)

Sun, 17th July.

Me and Sayang went cycling at ECP.

i love you :)

We were enjoying the view of the sea.

U macam shy... :P

Sun, 26th June.

Sunday, 1st May

Rachel's birthday party.

Rach's bf, Timolthy & Rachel; Me & my bf, Elfie :D

I dunno how many pics i've posted here but

it's quite a number.

The rest of the pictures will be in separate albums

in my multiply,

together with other random photos not found here.

I'm beat.

****

I would start off with some quote but i find myself with none.

I only know that my feelings for you grow,

every single day. I might be busy at tyms,

but there's not a moment dat passes by,

dat i dun think of u. I love how we constantly

tease each other, our rship is fun and upbeat,

plus we get silly and kerayzee.

But, we also know when to slow down

and enjoy our silence.

Your eyes are like magic;

it's like they thrive on fire. Like a feeling of longing, yearning

and utmost passion, my heart beats each time

i look into your eyes. I have no script, this is all impromptu.

Your stare hooks me up, as if reeling me in to get closer to u.

There's something about u, that intrigues me everyday.

U didn't know dat, did u? :)

You are special to me.

Muhammad Elfie,

I sayang u.

From, your dear <3.

Forever Yours

2011-08-15T03:00:00.000+08:00

Sayang,

i shall update soon.

P.S.: I love you ;)

A Girl Can Dream

2011-08-01T01:43:00.001+08:00

A random post on my wish list.
What should i get myself?

Polaroid

Blackbird Fly

Triple Chocolate Brownies

Reverso Icecream Cake

Nude wedges

Helium balloon

Pop 9

Supersampler

Pink bicycle

Steve Madden bag

Chanel lippie

Personalized bangle from that shop

or.......

Maybe some quality time with my loved ones will do :)

It's 1st August 2011. Hari Raya will fall on 30th August. I still can't believe my birthday will fall on the eve this year.

Happy Ramadhan everyone.

Countdown: 28 more days.

Lighters

2011-07-18T20:40:00.002+08:00

This one's for you and me, living out our dreams
We're all right where we should be
Lift my arms out wide, I open my eyes
And now all I wanna see
Is a sky full of lighters
A sky full of lighters.

The Grass Is Not Greener On The Other Side

2011-07-07T01:48:00.001+08:00

Life takes a toll on all of us. Everybody have commitments.
But how do we draw a line on our social life, personal life, and business?
Some are involved with full-time school.
Some are involved with part-time school and work.
Some are involved with full-time school and full-time work.
And others? They just work all the time.
Life is unfair; that is somewhat true as the saying goes.

I have people who I care about who has school on a daily basis and they always complain about being tired (if they don't complain, i can see/know that they are tired).

I have people who are working and they are also, always, tired.
What about those people who goes to school and work? Damn right. Even more tired.
Projects, CAs, tests, assignments, and the list goes on.
So when does it stop? When?
I have no answer. It doesn't seem to stop, and it is a very sad situation.

When was the last time you told someone you love them?
And REALLY mean it?
When was the last time you looked your parents in the eye and tell them you love them?
When was the last time you went out with your siblings?
When was the last time you spent time with your close friends?
When was the last time you did NOTHING with your most favourite person and felt that that was the best thing ever?
And for those of you who are in love, do you really really love them?
Do you still get butterflies? Or are they all gone?
Do you only shop/windowshop/watch movie/have dinner/walk and hold hands and go home?
Do you talk? Like really really talk?
Do you talk about serious issues? Or do you talk about non-serious issues only?
Do you talk about random things?
Do you make them laugh? Do you make them smile?
When they smile, does it make you want to smile?
When they talk, do you listen? Or do you look at them like they're the bestest thing that's happened to you?
When they talk, do you get distracted and look at them in such an absorbed manner and wonder why you're so in love with them?
Do you joke around with them?
Do you tease them?
Guys and girls, texting aside, have u ever called and wished your other half good morning/afternoon/night?
Or anything random? and really mean it? Not just for the sake of it?
Guys, how do u ask girls out? text them? call them? ask them in person?
What do you say? "Wanna go out this wkend?" or "Are u free?" or "Would you like to go out with me?"
Girls, how do u answer? "Yea sure." or "Uhuhh why not." or "Okay." or "Yes, I would love to! :)"
Whether it's a normal meet-up/outing/date, guys, there is no excuse to ask a girl out like you're asking your buddy out... and girls, there is no excuse to answer the guy's qn in a way like you're meeting your best gal friend.
You're in love? Prove it, enjoy it. Don't turn things into a chore.
Do it because u love to and want to,and not bcos ur forced to.
Because when u do something that comes from your heart, the other half can tell and/or feel it, and they'll appreciate you even more.
Smile more everyday. Frown less (unless ur staring upclose at something and making your eyes really small and trying to scrutinize on an object of your attention.... either that, or u just tried to make a failed attempt at funny faces).
Oh, and flirting doesn't only happen before a rship.
Flirting doesn't stop.
Don't stop flirting with your other half.
Flirt with them (trust me, they'll love the attention, be it guy or girl).
Otherwise, u can try teasing.. and a whole lot of staring. :)
(Rmbr, it must go both ways.)
But don't just stare..... Do something about it ;)

Gosh, all these typing....
My anger is suddenly all gone. [Yeshie, I was feeling angry, dun ask why.]
Thank goodness :)

With much love and plenty of chocolates,
The Imperfect & Very Silly & Stubborn Girl, The One Who Loves To Dance, The One Who Yearns To Have A White Vespa But Has Phobia of Riding/Driving, The One Who Wants To Get A Hot Pink Bicycle With A Pretty Basket At The Front, The One Who Is Human,
Sahidah.

[P.S. I love you.]

Give Me Everything

2011-06-14T23:10:00.001+08:00

Awesome song. heh :D

The Fire That Never Went Out

2011-05-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

Fear & Sadness

2011-04-22T01:53:00.001+08:00

I would like to say thank you and my utmost gratitude to my relatives, colleagues, especially my girlfriends and loved ones for visiting my dad at the hospital the previous days. Currently, he is okay.
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On a side note.
Fear.
What is fear?
My mind is full of things.
Terrible things.
Scared.
Terrified.
Worried.
I constantly worry.
I cry.
Tears.
I'm truly scared.
I'm scared, i'm scared, i'm scared.
I'm the eldest child for goodness sake.
I can't afford to lose loved ones in my life anymore.
I'm just not strong enough.
Just not strong enough for all these.
Please :(
Take away all this sorrow and pain..
For i am really weak..
And i am in constant need of attention :(
I feel neglected and invisible..
;(
I end this post with these three words..
I love you.

Black and Yellow

2011-04-15T01:39:00.000+08:00

On The Floor

2011-04-10T11:30:00.002+08:00

Me and You

2011-03-18T03:44:00.000+08:00

Holla. Yes.

Weird picture eyy? :P
And so,
i was over at Dear's place cos he invited me over for lunch!
16th March 2011 : His birthday! :D
Happy birthday to uuuuu :)
Mcm mini party lah.
Ada mee hoon, nasi goreng, sara lee cake, honeydew.
thanks to ur mum.
ooohh, & his dad bought him cake. :P
and the Dunkin Donuts?
*coughs2*
*now literally coughing cos im sick. haha*
by ME.
It's your surprise number one. ;)

Can i say i love the tripod?
muahahas. camwhore time.
all of the pictures here are not exhaustive;
i'll upload the bunch of 'em up on my multiply soon
(yes yes i know, dats wad i said last week).
There are just tons and tons of peekchas!
:)
Okay, so i was actually invited for his birthday buffet dinner
at Fairmont by his family, but i was feeling too unwell so i couldn't join them.
[My apologies :( ]
But I think u enjoyed urself, yes? :)
We shall celebrate soon :P

These pics were taken in Feb;

we were in that cafe.

The food that we ordered actually tasted delish.

I especially like the sauce.

6th March 2011.

Okay, this was a last-minute-unplanned-planned trip.

Does it even make sense?

Haha :P
We met up with Nora, Ash and A.

Thanks Nora, i owe u one! hehee :)

Btw, bila nak pegi makan nieeeee?

[Ash, kau pun sama, jgn senyap2 nak sembunyi eh.]

Too bad Afra wasn't there though.. We must meet you soon, Afra-san!

I have to say this.

I have to give credits to him; he was very brave!

Good job, dear! :)
Although he just sat there like Robocop :P

His hands were very still.

hehee.

I am a bit terrified of the bigger birds...so... heh. *runs & hides*

Small bird? Can! No problem! :P

hahahahahahahahahahahahha.

At first there was one..

and then there were two!

What a gigantic papaya.

Alamak!

Dear? Since when u tukang tangkap ayam? :D

Trying to catch the rooster now, are u?

Unfortunately,

we don't have any pics for 5th March 2011. :(

He forgot to bring his DSLR, and i forgot my digicam.

But it's okay :)

To make things short and sweet....

It was our monumental date.

He was gg to ask me THE QN.

He actually fetched me! :)

Which I find it really sweet.

I shall cut things short in here,

so if u wanna know in detail, ask me :)

1st surprise: Gave me a bouquet of flowers and a box of Guylian chocolates.

Then,we headed off to get our rings.

2nd surprise: Buffet dinner at Carousel.

3rd surprise: Let's just say the stars were shining brightly

in the night sky, and the atmosphere was really nice & cooling.

He gave me a red box. I opened it.

Inside was a card, and 28 developed photos of us.

It was really really lovely. :) :)

And then, he got down on his knees,

and asked me the qn.

I was thinking while he was talking

and everything in my mind & heart was

just crystal clear,

i felt this feeling of peace & serenity,

one that i don't think i've felt,

which was quite calming,

and i knew then that i just KNOW the answer,

without a doubt.

Without hesitation, i accepted. :)

Dear,

thank you for every single thing that u've done for me

on that special day of ours.

U really went to great lengths just to set it up.

I didn't expect it at all.

I really appreciate it.

I really really really really loved & adored everything.

There's not much that I can say that

can measure up to how/what i feel.

Your stare, your gaze, your eyes.

Like passing notes in secrecy.

P.S. I love you ;)

Chocolates and XOXO,

N.S.A.R.

Why You Gotta Be So Mean?

2011-03-15T23:38:00.000+08:00

If you think that you're heading into an abusive relationship, or something that is close to it, i suggest, or rather, strongly urge you to get out of it before it's too late. No matter how hard or painful it is. Sad but true. You only got what you got because of what you did.

A Whole Load Of Happiness, A Whole Lot Of Fun

2011-03-07T03:44:00.001+08:00

Oh gosh, it's already 3plus am & i'm still up blogging away.

lols.

Okay let me just take u thru this real fast.

These peekchas are made up from totally random outings to planned ones

from mid-January to current.

These are only SOME of the pics; i'll upload the whole bunch of different albums on MY MULTIPLY pretty soon & u can view the whole chunk of collection from there.

The pictures here are not in any order.

Our ER Gang trip to JB :)

Hell yeahhhh A&w root beer float! :P

Before we left, we went to Nando's.

We love polaroids, yes we do!

Me with his dslr :P

heh.

But these pics are from my digicam,

so sry for e quality eyy.

Guess who? :P

[Ohh i shall update about something huge that happened quite recently for the next post ;)]
Anyways, this was taken last mth i think..

Me, Nora, Ash, Afra, Shirin @ Universal Studios Singapore.

Anchor, yes? :) hee.

sunset:)

I visited the Istana on CNY weekend holiday! :D

Look at the queue!

But it moved pretty fast.

U are not allowed to take pictures inside the main building hence yeah.

U have to pay $2/pax if u wanna get in & take a look at all the beautiful

function rooms and all sorts of antiques and etc from all over the world.
:)

Note: I noticed this signboard! :) "Chonteng" is the old Malay spelling for "conteng".

Can u spot the President? :)

On eve of CNY.

Guess where I was at?

Kalau tahu, bagus. Kalau tak tahu, sudah.

hahahahaha. :P

As part of my school trip, we went to Sentosa! :)

My clique, 5 of us :)

Me, Praba, Azy, Aini, Yanti.

Me & gf Praba.

We made playdough in school! :D

Now i know how to make them! Yay.

Okay, TATA FOR NOW! :)

with love,

sahidah dancer.

*P.S. I love you dear ;)*

Bloody Hell

2011-03-01T01:16:00.003+08:00

First of all, let me start off by laughing. HA HA HA HA.
Am i clever, or am i clever?
Hell yes i found your blog and etc etc.
All the things u wrote in urs, have got me into a good raging madness.
But it's okay, i'm really done quarelling with u.
Face to face, texts, wadever.
End is end.
This is the closing end, the curtain call, as everyone prepares to take a bow, cameras flashing, smiling away, bows, curtain closes.
I am so done with people giving their opinions or wadever freaking schitts there is.
Once again, or rather, for e last time, people have nothing better to do.
U dunno me, u shut ur mouth, u dun say anything, simple as that.
But nooooo, people still talk. and talk, and talk.
which is really useless.
Easy isn't it? To just comment about other people's past lives when they themselves dunno what
the hell i have GONE THROUGH.
It's okay if i lose, it's really okay, i lose, you win.
Happy?
So done.
U wanna blame everything on me? So be it. I don't care. Not anymore.
I don't give a schitt anymore what you or other people think of me.
Doesn't matter.
I have my own life.

Moments

2011-02-21T04:07:00.000+08:00

I have a thing for this hot pink phone! :D

Ohyeah, thinking of changing my phone & number.

Have to do some research first though.

Some random peekchas.

How true.

Coolschitt pink knit top.

Polaroid.

One word: awesome.

Hermione, Harry, Ron, Ginny! :P

Cool-looking scooters or wad??

Calming.

Blair + Serena + hats!

Lose My Mind

2011-02-15T00:16:00.000+08:00

Light

2011-02-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, i just need a hug.
Sometimes, i just want to dip my feet in the waters.

It would be fun if i could jump from one cab to the next.

My assignments are piling up;

teaching's been kerayzee;

sometimes it's fun, sometimes i just wanna pull all my hair out;

sometimes i just wanna run away and dance my heart out;

sometimes i want to curl up in a ball, under my blankie, and cry my heart out;

i want to cry, i want to cry, i want to cry,

badly;

other days i just want to sleep, have a good long sleep,

what if i don't wake up, i ask myself,ahh only God knows.

i seem to be ranting, ahh who cares, it's my damn blog.

i notice that i have people from other countries viewing my blog, kinda cool.

sometimes i have hate tags on my blog, i dunno why, i dunno who.

i check its IP address, and it's always the same one.

maybe some people don't have anything better to do after all.

don't act like you know me cos you don't.

or just because u hear news about me from other people, doesn't mean u know me.

and that doesn't make it the truth, a fact, or real.

u keep tagging,i keep deleting.

that's the way it works.

don't need to hide anonymously.

get a life.

your own life.

i want to go on a bungee jump.

i want to move to another country.

i want to have my personal dance studio in my own home.

i want to eat spaghetti,if possible, on a daily basis.

i want to explore.

i want to be a tourist.

did i mention that i can go on holidays by myself already? :)

yupyup, it's true, & i'm quite looking forward to that, wherever it is that i want to go.

and i'll be off to Hong Kong in a few months time.

that will be good.

i feel like such a mess sometimes.

such a mess, such a mess.

messy life.

my heart hurts.

it really does.

i've lost my soul.

i've lost the sparkle.

i want to be light.

i want to feel light.

light.

Boxful of Chocolates In Tow,

Sahidah.

For The First Time

2011-01-31T01:09:00.001+08:00

Way Back Into Love

2011-01-23T01:24:00.000+08:00

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One of the songs from the movie, Music & Lyrics.

Old Spice Commercial

2011-01-15T20:19:00.001+08:00

I wanted to share this commercial a long time ago but I keep forgetting about it. I found out about this man from The Ellen Degeneres Show quite a long time back :D Go watch!

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Anyways, i've updated like 4 new albums of pictures on my multiply. So if u girls want peekchas, take from there! :)
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TTFN! <3

Gone

2011-01-10T23:09:00.000+08:00

I am not sure what is the purpose of that; but whatever questions or comments that you damn people/bitches/(or are you guys even human?) have in mind or have said are totally, totally uncalled for and unnecessary.
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What a freaking waste? Oh pls. Don't talk like u call the shots. You're not me. U haven't been in my shoes, ur not in my shoes. U dunno how i feel, u have NO idea. Zero. Nada. Zilch. Oh, and one more thing, MIND YOUR OWN GAWD DAMN BUSINESS.
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I personally feel people are either too damn free, or they have nothing better to do than to poke their noses into other people's life issues. Just because i don't have certain social networking sites, doesn't mean i'm stupid.
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And to u: U like the compliments u received? Great for u. Enjoy.
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Now screw you.
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I wish i don't have a heart. I'm tired of crying.

Burnt

2011-01-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

I feel angry. Very angry.

Like i have these words on a string of emotions that is far far far far too polite to even be in my blogpost.

People.

People who put on masks.

Yes.

Everyone does.

People hide secretly behind their masks; each afraid to reveal their true self,

to protect themselves from being hurt, and so forth.

That if these masks were to be peeled away slowly and carefully, it would reveal a whole lot of unknown.

People want to feel wanted.

People want to feel needed.

People want to be accepted.

And for what?

I have no idea.

I have lost all faith & hopes.

Fairytales only exist in Taylor Swift songs.

Everything else is just a mere show or act that life plays along with.

I feel so damn hurt that I'm feeling all these raw, painful emotions.

Slowly, i lose my belief.

It doesn't matter what I feel anymore.

It is that painful.

From,

The Single, The Available But Uninterested.

Human

2011-01-03T00:01:00.001+08:00

TS

2010-12-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

Taylor Swift's concert in Singapore Indoor Stadium will be on 9th Feb 2011. It is with great sadness that I hereby declare that her concert tickets are all SOLD OUT! :( Boohoohoo. There goes my plan of going to watch. Damn.

Anyways, it's okay, i shall just make do with listening to her new album. Yes, i bought it. I actually prefer the purple cover (which is the original cover), but her albums which are sold in SG apparently changed to her wearing red. Oh well.

Don't Let Me Fall

2010-12-20T01:49:00.001+08:00

Catch The Winds In Your Sails

2010-12-17T01:40:00.001+08:00

From a small child, she stumbles along her path.

From a child to a teenager, she stumbles along again.

From a teenager to a young adult, she stumbles and grows.

Now a young adult, she is still stumbling..

Like a little toddler, learning to walk, crying, looking out for her mummy..

Live.Laugh.Love.

Grow.

Pain.

Tears.

Air.

Breathe.

Water.

Sea.

Rain.

Ocean.

Lake.

Sunset.

Stars.

Orion's Belt.

Moon.

Silence.

Music.

Rhythm.

Tune.

Symphony.

Move.

Shake.

Dance.

Float on air.

Clouds.

Smiles.

Hugs.

Kisses.

Signs.

Empty.

Longing.

Sadness.

Cry.

Special.

Undescribable.

Live.Laugh.Love.

Say "Ooh La La"

2010-12-05T23:43:00.001+08:00

One of my style icons and fashion inspiration :)

Let's talk about fashion here, shall we? Well.. i'm going to touch on a little about the current trends of the moment. Let's see.. We have..

1) The Maxi Dress - I guess what I have to say about maxi dresses are that it's quite flexible. In fact, it's very flexible. U can dress it up, u can dress it down. Dress it up with platform heels, or u can simply dress it down with sandals/flats. (Strictly NO pumps please!) Previously, it was quite difficult to find maxi dresses which were suitable for me (ahem2, cos i'm what u might call a petite lady :P) But it's pretty easy to find shorter length maxi dresses now. Yay! :D *hails awesome people who gave a thought about petite females*

Anyways, if your dress is plain or basic, you could add some jazz by chunking on accessories, accessories & more accessories. Remember people, accessories are important! I swear by accessories (it really depends on your outfit). Oh yeah, always remember that the maximum number of accessories you can have on you is 7. Yupyup, 7's the number. No more than that. Adding on, I love to belt up my maxi dress with a thin waisted belt. It would be really great if the belt is longer in length as you could change the way the belt looks on you. If you're bored with the normal belt loop, you could do a simple twist and knot with it. I would prolly upload a pic of what I mean when I have it.

2) Wedge Heels (Wedges) /Platform Heels - I have to say that i'm in love with wedges. However, i don't like the heels area on some shoes. The material is not that good & it's not stunning. (I think Ash might know which kind I'm talking about.) So, the heel must, i repeat, must, look really good :) Wedges and/or platform heels are excellent cos they provide greater stability when you're walking. I can even run easily in mine! :) (I currently own an Americaya dark brown with gold studs.) Plus, you don't feel that tired wearing them either. If it gives you height, is pretty, looks good on you, and you feel good in it, then why not purchase one?? (Or two? or three? or more? :P) Alright, i've posted a few pictures of wedges below, take a look. I love each and every one of them.

Jeffrey Campbell Two Timer Wedge Bootie White Suede

Jeffrey Campbell Hamilton Suede Wedge Booties

Fendi Suede Sling back Applique Wedge

Black Poppy Lazercut Laced Wedge

Alryte, that's all for now. Fashion fever forever.

XOXO, The Dancer.

H.A.W.T.

2010-11-09T00:24:00.000+08:00

My oh my..

I remember, quite awhile back, when I had Pitbull's Hotel Room Service on replay each and every time. Who knew that Enrique Iglesias *screaaaaaaammms* would collaborate with Pitbull for this particular song? Enrique looks a tad different, but still hot ;P

Here's the video "I Like It".

"Baby, i like it, the way you move on the floor,

Baby, i like it, come on & give me some more."

Yes yes yes, i like it alryte :D

This song makes me wanna dance.. (Rmbr the dancing a few years back, girlfriends? :P)

All Things Fancy & Everything Else In Between

2010-11-06T17:15:00.000+08:00

No blog entry.

Only pictures.

Coldplay's The Scientist

2010-10-26T00:37:00.000+08:00

Come up to meet you, tell you i'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you i set you apart.

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers & figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science & progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

But tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh, and i rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

Rainbows

2010-10-15T01:15:00.001+08:00

Random excerpts from Where Rainbows End.

"and there was laughing. lots of laughing. then the laughing stopped and there was this silence. this weird comfortable silence. what the hell was it? it was like the world stopped turning in that instant. like everyone around us had disappeared. like everything at home was forgotten about. it was as if those few minutes on this world were created just for us and all we could do was look at each other. it was like he was seeing my face for the very first time."

On a side note, what I don't have or is lacking of currently is time.

I feel tired easily.

So easily.

How easy it is to just shut my eyes for a moment.

Having some time to myself would be heaven.

And sometimes, my eyes would be glistening with tears. I just wish I have a lot of free time. But that's just impossible.

I would feel weak at times; emotionally, physically, mentally.

I want to bounce on fluffy clouds.

I want to swing myself up so high that I don't want to touch the ground.

I want to feel a strong gush of wind blowing through my hair.

I want fresh air.

I want to look at beautiful sceneries.

I want to dance, with full passion and madness.

I miss dancing.

I miss my girlfriends.

I need strength.

Please give me strength.

Teachers' Day Celebration

2010-09-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

Me posing with the flower delivery.

ROFL.

And so, my centre and other centres got to watch

Fried Rice Paradise!!

(for free! hehee! :P)

(PS: Ash, jealous tak? jealous tak? Ade Taufik Batisah!!! KEKEKE)

Cos all the teachers and staffs were on half-day baby!

We went to celebrate Teachers' Day by watching the musical,

and had a buffet dinner cum breaking fast at Bali Thai.

Everything was paid for. :D

It's my very first time celebrating as a teacher.

Mcm excited gitu. Lols okay giler.

Okay, so i'm not really gg to elaborate much.

To cut things short, i'm currently an Assistant Teacher at a childcare centre,

have been working since mid-August, gg to start my 3-wkdays school/course and 2-days & alternate Saturdays next week onwards.

I'm under company sponsorship; taking Professional Diploma in Early Childhood Care & Education (accelerated course for a year).

After this, my post changes to Teacher, Insya-Allah.

Things are gg to be hectic-kerayzee next week onwards;

may i be a walking zombie til next year. -_-

I wasn't expecting any gifts at all seriously,

but I actually received Teachers' Day presents from some of the children! :D

Wonderful :)

Like usual, other peekchas will be up on my multiply.

Signing off,

Sahidah Dancer / Teacher Sahidah.

Pre-Bday/Bday

2010-09-05T02:36:00.000+08:00

Pre-Bday:

Got a treat at Swensens.

thank u for everything :)

I loveeee the present; it's super hot pink :D

can't really see the shade clearly from these peekchas.

All other peekchas are up on my multiply.

I'll update on my very first Teachers' Day celebration pretty soon. :)

A Grieving Phase

2010-08-18T14:46:00.000+08:00

It is with greatest sadness and sorrow that I'm typing this here.

My grandmother (mum's mum) passed away on 15th August, merely a few days back.

It happened just during maghrib. I witnessed the whole thing with my very own eyes.

I was very sick on that day; woke up in the morning and threw up a lot; went to the doctor in the afternoon; had fever and nausea.. Who knew that tragedy would strike during breaking fast time?

My family were all fasting, so they were all prepared seated at the dinner table, while i was in my room resting. Throughout the day, i kept glancing at my bro's room to where my gran was lying, she was sleeping non-stop, she was still breathing. And then came evening, my family were at the hall, i was in my room, i glanced at my gran and noticed that her eyes were opened..but something was not right. I looked closer and stood near the doorway, her eyes were looking up. I quickly told my family and we ran into the room. I saw the tears in her eyes before she passed on. Mere moments passed, and then, just like that, she was gone. I remember every single detail that happened. Called up relatives with shaking hands/fingers while trying to dial their numbers and speaking with wavering voices. People kept asking me questions, and i had to repeat everything that happened while fighting back my tears. I remember everything that happened from my house full of people, to the prayers, to sending to the Muslim cemetery.

I only have these to say. I am glad that my eyes were glued on her on that evening. Only ALLAH knows what would happen if I didn't look.

I love you, Nenek ;( ALLAH loves u more.

I Love August

2010-08-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

:) :) :) :)

I looked at the calendar just to be sure.

And it's true.

I love August even more!

Wonderful or wad?

It happens ONCE every 823 years!

Yay!

I Finally Did It

2010-08-01T18:55:00.000+08:00

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make you sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
*
I woke up late today.
I received an sms from one of my gfs; it made me cry.
And then, i thought about things again.

August has arrived.
Who ever knew that this favourite month of mine would kick off to a gloomy start?
After going through my thinking process, i had to do something.
I couldn't leave things just like that.
It couldn't stay that way forever.
It just wasn't possible to live life like that.
And so, i made my decision.
8 months.
It has been 8 months.
After so long..
I finally did it.
*
*
I know i'm unhappy with myself now.
I've been feeling unhappy for awhile.
I'm not myself anymore.
Exactly 4 more weeks to my 22nd birthday.
Should i look forward to 29th August?
A question i keep asking myself.
Dear Heart, what happened to u?
U need time to heal.

And so, i leave this blogpost with this quote,
Where is the "good" in goodbye?

Until then,
with all my love, hugs & chocolate kisses,
id.

I Go GAGA Over Them

2010-07-28T01:00:00.000+08:00

This blogpost shall be on colourful things (well, mostly)

which i simply adore! :) :)

Let's spread some cheer around, shall we? :D

The above pink felt bowler hat is so cute!

I wish i could touch it.

I love maxi dresses (and hell yes, they work for petites too, baby!)

Everyone can wear maxi dresses; it's just a matter of finding the right cut for your body type.

And yes, i loveeee this white sweetheart neckline maxi number! :)

I love everything about this;

the clever use of colour combination on the dress, the chunky bangles and the headscarf.

The maxi is pretty!

Paris Hilton wearing a yellow maxi.
Perfect for sunny days.

I think i'm in love with this white lace-up flat sandals from Burberry.

This is too cute to not stop and stare at it for awhile.

Pink-gold Kamala flat sandals from DVF.

(Have i ever mentioned that i happened to take a glance at her before?? :D

Yes, im talking about Ms Diane von Furstenberg the designer herself.

It was at Ion; it might be during the opening of her outlet,

and plenty of people were right outside her outlet.

[i guess some being socialites/VIPs etc]

So happy! haha. Evntho i only managed to look from afar.)

Cool green flat sandals with fringes.

Love love the fuchsia flat sandals from Mia Hydra.

Pink toe ring sandals with gold buckle from Matisse.

Twelfth St by Cynthia Vincent Coco Woven Flat Sandals.

Both sandals from Crave;

i love how they look in yellow and green, hence i showed both here.

Okay, that's it for now. I think i've gone mad looking at all these yummylicious merchandise.

Any comments on these? Do you have a favourite piece of clothing that you won't ever give away to anyone? Any shopping craving madness going on? Do tag me up!

LOVELOVELOVE, id.

Afra The Gothic Lolita aka The Rocker

2010-07-26T00:09:00.000+08:00

The ER Gang celebrated Afra's 22nd birthday

on her bday itself, 17th July.

Yay! :)

The helium balloon!
Hush hush, it's gg to be a surprise!!

Surprise!! Ta-da!!

You are special to me, to us :)

Nothing beats your "meow, meow" & other cutesy sound effects that u like to make.

And not forgetting ur oh-so-random questions and sudden words that u churn out.

Always bring a smile to my face.

U know i love u!

Hope u had a wonderful 22nd bash, my sugar pie! ^_^

*mwahs!*

Our friendship is strong like glue, sisters.

ROFL to this last pic :P

U know i know we know, view peekchas on my multiply.

In light of this blogpost, it must be Japanese-inspired in some way;

and so i say Sayonara! for now :)

Kak Aliz's Engagement

2010-07-18T17:54:00.000+08:00

Kak Aliz's engagement day on 11th July :)
Kak Aliz, Yani & me.

This cake is so damn adorable! :D

Alrytey, this is only a tiny glimpse of peekchas.

for full album of peekchas, check out my multiply! :)

lovelovelove, the dancer says tata for now.

Can I Have This Dance?

2010-07-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

I love this particular scene in HSM3, in which Gabriella & Troy (Vanessa Hudgens & Zac Efron) danced together on their sch's rooftop. They were "practicing" for prom in a way. (In the movie, there's another part in which this song is played again; but this time round, Troy gives Gabriella a surprise visit.)

Rooftop. Dance. Rain. What's not to love? :)

Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Oh no mountains too high and no oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all

And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Dancer On A Mission

2010-07-03T00:17:00.000+08:00

Clouds + Swings = love.

Trying hard to get my life back in place..

Me in 09; Muzikaraya.

Me in 08; trying to draw a unicorn :P

Me & Afra in 08.

Me & Ash in late 08; retro-fied.

Me, Ash, Nora in early 09.

ER '09.

ROFL at thaaaaaaaat peekcha.

Sorry lah, i'm very cheeky.

*eyebrows up & down*

Last but not least,

07 or 08 i can't rmbr..

Posted up old peekchas for fun & laughter :D

I change my hairstyle too often

that i don't really remember

the exact year!

Was looking thru my archives in my dashboard.

Boy oh boy,

my hairstyle keeps changing every single year!

hahahahahaha.

OKAY,

time to go!

I'm going to

dye my hair pink!

(JUST KIDDING)

I saaaaaayang all you sexy kittens!

:) ;)

A Dreamer's Tale

2010-06-28T02:26:00.000+08:00

This blogpost is very

r-a-n-d-o-m :D
:)

Seow ting tong.

One-eyed shy boho chic.

Ni dah sewel, rambut pun dah messy!

Peace baby peace!

Suddenly, the blue heels remind me of Masquerade Royale laaaaaaa.

wahahaha.

i rmbr falling.

like reali ROFL.

And my knee was bruised :/

But now it has healed!

Yippee! :)

And on another random note, someone commented abt my smile

on my formspring. And i dunno who the person is.

So..if u are reading this, whoever u are,

thank u for the compliment :)

I dun have anything else to yack about;

just that i went to shop & had dinner just now with one of my gfs,

ASH

(interested viewers can click on "Ash" to view her blog.

view at your own personal discretion.)

See Ash?

I'm promoting ur blog.

MUAHAHAS :P

Gosh,

i'm talking nonsense again.

-_-

Okay, dudes & dudettes.

With Loveee, Kisses & of course, Chocolates

(i dun care whether u like white chocolates,

milk chocolates or dark chocolates,

i'm giving u all kinds),

from Sahidah/Id/Daadaa.

Till the next post, yes yes yes?

P.S. - I seriously miss dancing :(

P.P.S. - I really really really miss my loved ones :(

P.P.P.S. - On a lighter note, Afra's bday is coming next month! :)

Yay Me

2010-06-19T01:42:00.000+08:00

Hello :)

Can u twist ur fingers like mine?? :P

Yes, actually i'm supposed to draw with eyeliner

but I was too lazy. heh.

One day i'll try & do the thick eyeliner

and join it up with the heart.

I have learned the hardest but the most contenting and satisfying lesson yet. I love me. I find myself fascinating and charming. I am my own good company. Unlike the men that have left me feeling empty and just something to be discarded, their trash, their scrapes, their toy that they left in ribbons, I get it. I see who I am and I like what I see finally and that love has filled me up with so much that i refuse to take anything less than the happiness I give myself.

Like what i've said in my multiply, I think I'm a much happier person now :)

To quote London Tipton's pretty vocabulary, i say "YAY ME!!!" \(^_^)/

Now, a handful of my peekchas must be posted for this joyous occasion :P Muahahas.

Till then, with all my loveee :)

P.S. I miss my loved ones.

The More We Get Together

2010-06-17T01:44:00.001+08:00

Sun, 13th June 2010:

Had a get-together of birthdays with my dad's side.

Us at Pasir Ris Park/chalet at Pasir Ris Costa Sands.

Me, Mira & Yani :)
L.O.V.E.
I love you & you love me!

Some pics are taken using Mira's DSLR
while some are shot by my digicam,
Panasonic Lumix DMC FS-62.

I love the cloud.

Look at its shape.

What do u see?

Face-painting were done on the kids.

Yes, our party's the most awesome,

we had party poppers and those spraycan thingy..

waddya call those things??

I forgot. ROFL.

U actually see only 2 names here, but it goes out to every June baby in our family.

Those seated directly opposite e cake are the June babies.

And, i KNOW it's World Cup fever and all,

but, Kak Yuni (which is Murni here) is a Liverpool fan

& she bought e cake, dats why!

This cake does not do any justice to me,

i'm a MAN UTD fan! :P

Everyone was like "Ooiiiii....ape niiiiiiii" upon looking at e above cake.

ROFL.

And this is the Fathers' Day cake!

(and yes, they got sprayed by e can & party poppers too!)

Sulastri (one of e bday girls) & me.

Okay i'm done here!

To view e full album of 65 peekchas,

go to my multiply!

I'm off,

with much loveee :)

On a side note, it's nice being told that i am missed :)

Feeding Farm Frenzy

2010-06-13T01:27:00.000+08:00

Thurs, 11th June.

We went to Farmart Centre!

We were supposed to be heading for Hay Dairies,

but switched venue at the last min.

This place is very old-skool. haha.
Anyways, it's free entry to all.

However, u have to pay a tiny sum for e shuttle bus ride

which took like, about, what.. 8mins?

U just sit back, relax,

blink blink blink your eyes

& u've reached! :P

We went to the animals area only;

that was the main purpose.

Feeding is for $1 only!

But if it's different food for different animals, of cos u have to pay another dollar.

Confusing?

Food for goats - $1.

Food for fishes & turtles & frogs - $1.
Food for rabbits - $1.

If you're still confused, haiya..

$1 per food packet la!

I think we spent like $5 or smtg.

Just to feed them.

But it was a fun experience.

The black goat is very naughty!

It headbutt the brown one a lot of times!!

and kept stealing e other's food!

As u can see from e above pic,

i told mairah to give e sweet potato leave to e brown one instead.

Naughty blackie!

Ahh my favourite goat,

the huge mountain goat.

It has blue eyes.

Plus, it's a special kind of blue too!

Very magical.

At first, i was a bit hesitant to feed it,

cos all of them had their heads out onto the gap/space.

And i had to get even closer to feed it.

Nasib baik tak kene headbutt!

hahahahaha.

And these are the female rabbits!

See?

so cute!!!

I was reminded of my white & brown rabbits.

Loads & loads of turtles.

And say hello to the male rabbits!

They are much bigger in size.

Dunno why though.

lols.

The white-brownish one stared at me in the above pic!

Maybe it was posing for e camera.

It is resting & looking at me.

Now..

when was e last time

anyone looked at me

with such intensity?
ROFL :)

They sit very quietly when we gave them food,

but when they finished them,

they quickly stand on their hind legs,

grabbed their paws onto the metal grill

and look at us!

My comments for this particular outing?

Animals are clever.
And they are very hungry.

hehehehe! Okie, the usual; full pics at multiply!

Till den! *hugs & kisses from me*

There's Nothing Else I Can Say

2010-06-10T21:21:00.001+08:00

This was on Tues, 1st June.

We went to WXY's bday celebration.
Xiao Yan & Me.
Some of DBA 3B/06 (2009/2010)

Apparently, Jian Hui brought his dog (it's a female; called Butter!)

and Rachel's holding her.

For full pics, go to my multiply!

Ask me qns on my formspring, anyone?

anyone?

Alrytee, i'm out! :)

The 5 Stages of Grief

2010-06-08T01:30:00.002+08:00

I was watching Drop Dead Diva the other day, and i was reminded of a particular thing that the actress said, and so i went to google it up.

It's called the 5 Stages of Grief, also known as the Kubler-Ross model.

Denial ("I feel fine")
Anger ("Why me? It's not fair!" "How can this happen to me?")
Bargaining/Making a Deal (doing smtg to delay/postpone smtg tt has happened)
Depression ("I'm so sad, why bother with anything?")
Acceptance ("It's going to be okay")

So a person has to go thru all of these stages to feel fine? Gee, thanks, Kubler-Ross model. Never been better.

All That Moves

2010-06-06T00:47:00.000+08:00

And so!

I went to e Mly Heritage Centre with my fam on Sunday, 30th May.

Otherwise known as Taman Warisan Melayu (TWM).

They had a cool showcase of all sorts,

from dance to silat to singing etc.

I, of course, went to see e dance performances. :D

It was awesome;

the local dance groups performed.

& & &,

apparently,

my Sang Singa Purba (SSP from SP)

were there as volunteers.

I saw some of them.

me & fatin.
me & ili.

ida kecik & me.

managed to take pics with the juniors.

i miss them all :)

gosh, i miss e rest of e dancers :(

Some pics of dance groups..

The above is Artiste Seni Budaya Tepak Sireh.

And this one is Dian Dancers!

I saw Aizat performed! :)

I talked to him for a bit.

Sat, 29th May.

Like Ash always say,

"Girlfriendssssss!"

*wriggle fingers*

rofl!

Okay,

e rest of e peekchas are on multiply!

Till then.

xoxo!

My Grad

2010-06-01T01:40:00.000+08:00

Some pics on my graduation which happened on 19th May 2010.

That's me on stage with the Director of School of Business.

The whole event was great, i guess.

The place was packed, food wasn't bad, i took quite a lot of pics.

U can go to my multiply (http://idancer.multiply.com)

to view all 78 pictures.

The view from where i was seated in the SP Convention Centre.
The gown is big, and most people were wearing size XS like mine.
lols.

Of course TWCD had to take a pic together! :)

Our successful jump shots.

Me, Rach & Ash.

(The place looks bare cos many had left;

we kinda lingered for a long time.)

Me & Ash.

I'm posing in front of the beloved Retail Place!

rofl :P

Us at the infamous red bridge.

[I can't wait to see our final edited music video version of

Telephone, Ash! Muahahas.

All done in the name of fun & madness.

Guess who's lady gaga & who's beyonce?

To be continued.... ]

What Hurts The Most

2010-05-28T00:55:00.000+08:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tears now & then & just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok

But that's not what gets me.

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do.

What's left of me....

Do U Wanna Ask Me Anything?

2010-05-24T12:53:00.000+08:00

Hi Readers! :)

If you dudes & dudettes have anything that u might wanna ask me, go ahead! :) Just click on "My Formspring" under "Dudes & Dudettes". Or.. or.. or.. you can just do it right here on my blog. The textbox is right below my Cbox. Just type in your qns & click send! However, to see my answers to your questions (well, once i answer them, that is..i promise i'll try to answer as soon as possible), u have to visit/view my formspring page. You can click "My Formspring" under "Dudes & Dudettes".... or if under "ASK ME", you can hover your cursor on "formspring.me - nursahidah" and just click; it'll bring you to my formspring page. It's as easy as that. So yeah! Do check out my formspring page. It's a site for Q&A basically.

You can ask me any qns under the sun; it doesn't have to be a serious qns.
E.g. "Do you wear yellow?" "What is your opinion on wearing a lifejacket to school?"

LOLS. Okay, i was talking nonsense. So yeah, u get my drift. :P

I'm looking forward to ur random questions; be it silly or whatever. So go on, formspring me! I can't wait. (I just started using it moments ago.)

Just in case u don't understand what i was babbling about above, just go to http://formspring.me/nursahidah.

TTFN! :D

with lurve, hugs, kisses & chocolates,
sahidah dancer.

P.S: I will update my blog on graduation soon.

ER Gang @ Barrage

2010-05-18T01:27:00.000+08:00

Yay!

Finally, we get to have a full ER Gang outing!

Afra the rocker,

Me the dancer,

Ash the gamer,

and Nora the planner.

The four babes are back :)

And so we went to chill out

& just enjoy the breeze

at Marina Barrage

on Sat, 15th May 2010.

Ash treated us to the donuts.

thank youuuu, asheee! :P

(Maklum lah, dia nak recognition nieee. muahahas!)

My phones.

LOLS jk!

Afra's Samsung Preston,

Afra's iTouch,

My LG Cookie,

Ash's Samsung Jet,

& Nora's iPhone.

Lelong lelong!

HAHAHA.

Mau beli mah?

YES dat's right.

Dun rub ur eyes!

It's an octopus!

and it's gigantic!

Random!

lols to this pic.

This kite is pretty cute.

Another one of my signature shots.

After e whole fiasco ended, Nora had to go off, hence the 3 of us were left.

We headed to town & shopped a teeny bit.

Okay, TTFN!

Graduation's coming soon..

Protective

2010-05-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

See that heart in the bottle?

Well, imagine it in pieces..and that's my heart.

From now onwards,

i'm locking it up,

i'll guard it safely,

and protect it.

I made brownies last week on 7th May;

went to celebrate an advanced Mothers' Day with my relatives on mum's side & gran

on 8th May.

Down

2010-05-10T00:19:00.000+08:00

oh how i wish ;(

My Sayangs

2010-05-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

Say hello to my baby! :)

[no name yet uhh]
Lookin' pretty fine, duncha?

On Thurs, 29th April 2010,

i had dinner with fieza

at Manhattan Fish Market.

The view was spectacular,

esp at night.

There's loads more pics;

feel free to click on

"My Multiply" to view them!

TWCD celebrated Rach's bday a lil early this yr.

She turned 20 on 3rd May.

We went to

Max Brenner's Chocolate Bar.

Hands down,

i loveeeeee the place!

Chocolates here, chocolates there,

chocolates chocolates everywhere!!

*faints*

Wan Ting & I ordered this:

milk chocolate soup with

marshmallows, strawberries & chocs.

[u can choose white/dark choc too].

Yi Ting's one was super cute,

some crepes thingy i forgot e name :P

e chocolate sauce/hot fudge is amazing!!

Hell no, we weren't sitting at e entrance! :P

i just took a pic from the side outside.

i dun think i'm making any sense.

lols!

In My Head

2010-05-04T00:04:00.000+08:00

Guess Who's Back?

2010-05-01T01:55:00.000+08:00

Yay, i'm back! :)

I haven't been able to get to any sort of internet connection since the past week..

All because of my previous lappie :(

Yeah, my dearest Acer died on me :(

I couldn't even see anything on the screen; it was blank when i tried switching it on.

I tried on Sat, 24th all the way til Mon, and i totally gave up

and went to the service centre on my own on Tuesday.

(Yes, on my OWN, i'm so proud of myself! :D haha!)

I arrived 15mins after e place opened! lols.

early in the morning.

I thought that my HDD was down.

Alas, i was told that e freakin' motherboard was spoiled.

(O_O)

To cut a long story short, i found out tt the cost to repair the whole thing was too much.

With a heavy heart, i dragged myself out of e place & went home.

And i i gave myself some time to think of any possible solution.

To cut a realllllllyyyyyyy long story short,

I got myself a HP Mini netbook; it's all black

(i will get my hands on my dream hotpink netbk in e future :P)

and here i am happily typing this post out.

I just got it just now.

oooohhhh!

Did i mention that it's

super light? HEE HEE.

I'm still sad abt my prev lappie tho....

I need to retrieve its hdd & turn that into my external hdd for this new love of mine.

This is such a random post!

Goodbye Acer Ashley Beckford.

Hello HP Mini (haven't thought of a name :P).

Til then..

lurve,

The Dancer.

*you have no idea how much i miss you*

More Than Words

2010-04-23T02:20:00.000+08:00

If you’re going to love me, love me deeply.

If you’re going to break my heart, then break it all.

If you’re going to care, care for me completely.

If you decide not to hold me, don’t let me fall.

If you’re going to stay, then stay forever and

If you want to leave, then do it today.

If you’re going to change, change for the better.

And if you’re going to talk, please mean what you say.

Apart

2010-04-21T01:20:00.000+08:00

Because we are drifting apart.

;(

Solo to Sentosa

2010-04-16T02:15:00.000+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO!

So guess where was i?

See that red bird??

HAHA.

I visited my two gfs at Butterfly Park @ Sentosa

on Tuesday, 13th April.

Now.. very few people know this..but..

i am kinda timid of birds.. black birds to be more precise, LOL :P

Still, that scary incident that happened in the past was too mind-boggling.

Hence, I was kinda apprehensive when Ash asked me if I wanted to feed the birds.

(O_O)

Mama, tolong...!
I really had no idea where my courage came from,

but there you go, the bird was perched on my wrist.

I SWEAR to you, my heart was doing kerayzee jumping moves,

and I just couldn't stop babbling.

Next time, cover me with tape, will you?

And then.. suddenly, while i was looking intently at the red bird,

another bird flew and sat on my shoulder!!!

I swear i almost fainted from the shock.

hahahahhhahaha.

I wanted Ash to get it away from me,

but she (yes, the devil that she is) just stood there smiling away and told me to relax..

aaaahhhhhhh!

Anyways, i think i did good.

In fact, i didn't even shout.

I wish someone would tell me,

"I'm so proud of u! I can't believe u did that."

But no, haha, i had to congratulate myself.

Cheh cheh cheh. Ni da confident sikit, dah tak takut sangat,

sempat posing sekali :P

(look at the green bird!!! it was only like..what? 3 inches away from me!!)

Ish3. Selenge bacin nye gmbr nieeeeeeeeee.

ROFL.

Jom jom, mari mari, ikut kami! :)

Cool drinking shot.

lols.

We were just around the area..

I LOVE the HERSHEY'S shop! :) :)

U put ME + CHOCOLATE together,

and what do u get??

muahahas.

(My blog ain't called "simplylurvechocs" for nutin u know..)

Hershey's bar, Hershey's kisses & Reese's peanut butter.

Nora & her chicken rice.

Ohhh, da bukan Mee Rebus lagi eh? Kekeke :D

Ash & her fried rice..

and me with my fish & chips.

And so, we chatted over dinner..

It felt good to talk about everything and anything under the sun.

But i mostly listened tho..

ohhh... and did i mention they made fun of me?

They said i was doing subtle dance moves

here and there..

which i swear i had no idea doing

until they pointed it out.

Head move la, hand move la.

Butt move takde?

Kelakar eh?

Teased me all the way from Sentosa til Banquet.

Baik ah Nora. :P

Best girlfriends i wouldn't trade anything for.

loveeeee youuuu.. *hugs*

PS: The wonderful DEAREST AFRA is dearly missed! See you soon!

Sunkist orange juice! :D

MWAHS!

Kisses from me to you!

a random joke:

"what did one volcano say to the other?"

answer: "do you lava me like i lava you?" (say it dramatically & flirtatiously)

(do you love me like i love you? understand?)

If you find this lame, pls ignore! :P

TTFN!

(TATA FOR NOW)

Do you remember YOU+ME?

2010-04-13T02:35:00.000+08:00

"If you look inside a girl's heart, you'd see how much she really cries. You'll find hidden secrets and lies. But what you'll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong."

"because every sixty seconds that you spend upset is a minute of happiness that you'll never get back."
*

And so, i tell myself, i don't want to be sad. I just want to be happy. I will smile, for now. :)

Because I'm Only Human

2010-04-12T01:23:00.001+08:00

All of these..

everything..

here.

I know i'm pretty much messed up when i forget dat Saturday nights showed my favourite Privileged show. I never forget about Privileged. Until i realised about it the following day. Which was too late. What's wrong with me? *knocks on own head* *Earth to Sahidah, are you there? Wake up.* *shakes head* *sighs*

blogspot, check.

multiply, check.

Undisclosed Desires

2010-04-11T01:37:00.000+08:00

If you only knew

I'm hanging by a thread

The web I spin for you

If you only knew

I'd sacrifice my beating

Heart before I lose you

I still hold on to the letters

You returned

I swear I've lived and learned

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep

Without you next to me I

Toss and turn like the sea

If I drown tonight, bring me

Back to life

Breathe your breath in me

The only thing that I still believe

In is you, if you only knew

If you only knew

How many times I counted

All the words that went wrong

If you only knew

How I refuse to let you go,

Even when you're gone

I don't regret any days I

Spent, nights we shared,

Or letters that I sent

I still believe in you

Oh, if you only knew

Mm, what'd you say?

Mm, that you only meant well

Well of course you did

Mm, what'd you say?

Mm, that it's all for the best

Of course it is

Mm, what'd you say?

Mm, that it's just what we need

You decided this

Mm, what'd you say?

Mm, what did you say?

Why did i place my heart down on the floor?

2010-04-10T02:34:00.001+08:00

This is so true.

You can be constantly talking, but you're not communicating.

and one day, i woke up.. and i was all alone.

Exactly. What the hell are you doing?

It's like someone placed my heart in a blender, only without the "switch off" button.

That's how mashed up it is, and it's still being smashed.

What if i die tomorrow? What if i die next month? What if i die before i graduate? What if i die before my birthday? What if i die after i write this blog post? What if i die in my sleep?

It will all be too late then.

My blog's updated.

My multiply's updated.

My TWCD Xanga's updated.

Done.

Suddenly, The World Is Not Beautiful....

2010-04-07T01:07:00.001+08:00

Personal peekchas are edited using my phone.

Using "auto level", "glow" & "tunnel effect".
Using "auto level" & "cartoon".

Using "auto brightness" & "tunnel effect".

Using "tunnel effect".

We went to Esplanade on 2nd April,

and Arab Street on 3rd April.

2nd April was my sister's 10th birthday.

I got her a Geronimo Stilton book.

I won't ever forget the unique names in it.

Names of mouses, to be exact.

One of which is Cheesita de la Pampa.

SERIOUSLY! :D

damn funny.

She's showing her eyes only;

reminds me of a certain pic of mine.. lols.

Dear sister, i hope you'll be a bright student.

Study hard, don't be like me.

I hope u have good health, don't be like me.

Be talkative but not to the point of irritating, and don't be shy and quiet like me cos pple might call you "bisu". I don't want dat to happen to u.

Eat well, don't be like me.

Be strong and face obstacles with ur head held high, don't be like me.

In other words, just do better than me.

and i love you.

Using "auto brightness".

Using "auto level" & "tunnel effect".

Using "auto level".

Love this. Using "auto level" & "watercolour".

This was unedited.

Alryte, i've been feeling kinda down lately.

Some pictures to cheer me up..

(and you viewers too, if you're down as well).

LOLS to iBoard & iMat.

figure this out :)

Two words: Lady Gaga-ish?

Hamburger on trampoline.

Referring to the font name, get it?

I have the same pair of pants; lighter shade of colour.

So much makeup!

And sometimes, i just wanna show the finger.

Oh yeah, i've finished reading this..

and this..

and this.

When i feel down, i cry, i bury my head under my pillow/blanket, i listen to music, i stare at my phone, i stare at pictures in my laptop, i look at letters/pictures in my wardrobe, i look at the ring, i play games, i blog, i multiply, i watch home movies, i look at clouds, and i dance.

To you: Yes my gf, you were across the borders. when you're ready to share, do tell. I'll be your listening ear.

To you: I know you're having problems now, gf. I don't want the same thing dat happened to me to happen to u. I hope it doesn't happen. I want to see u happy. This makes me feel really down. Reminded of what happened. Not good at all. I hope to hear positive news.

To you: Yes you, you better know who you are. Telling me to take care of her? Be a man. Don't do this. Don't act rashly. Or you may just REGRET IT. Work it out. Please. I'm one of your friends. This is what i have to say to you, for now.

And i hate it, i repeat, hate it, when pple ask me about what i wanna do with my life, what job i wanna take on, what i wanna work as,

yadda yadda yadda.

It's my gawddamn life.

QUIT ASKING ALREADY!

Everyone has complicated issues.. :(

I don't like one bit of it.

Right now, life kinda sucks.

Wait, let me say it again.

Life sucks.

Dear Allah, pls help. I dunno wad to do. Bring sunshine into my life. I feel helpless. Amin.

Lunch With The Ladies (ala Breakfast at Tiffany's)

2010-03-31T22:15:00.000+08:00

Don’t ever let a girl’s efforts for you end in vain. If you love her, take note of the little things she does. When she lets you see her without her makeup, when she brings you your favorite food or drink just because, when she whines softly that she’s cold or that she wants a kiss, when she runs her fingers through your hair. There are probably a million other things she’ll do for you because she loves you, because she wants to, and she will never ask for your acknowledgment of them; but understand that one day she may feel unappreciated, unloved; neglected by your lack of gratitude towards these little things, and may stop. Remember all the reasons why you love her, and remember to appreciate them. You know that saying, you never know what you had until it’s gone. Don’t take her love for granted.

And so, on Tuesday, the 16th of March,

there lived three lovely ladies who were extremely hungry..

hence, they decided to get together to have a

smashin' meal

to fill their poor tummys.

Me with Nora & Ash

at Breeks.

[Afra has school :( ]

My mocktail; it's called Goldilock Freeze.

Pretty cute name for a drink.

and here's my signature shot---- shoes!

MUAHAHAS :P

ahhhhhhhh the snail!! look look!

Calo bete. Kuch kuch hota hai. Heyday. May day, May day.

Kap pun kap. Tea cup. Coffee cup. Masuk angin, keluar asap. Lompat-lompat, masuk balik tingkap. :D

GILER!

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Me & My Loved Ones

Forever Yours

A Girl Can Dream

Lighters

The Grass Is Not Greener On The Other Side

Give Me Everything

The Fire That Never Went Out

Fear & Sadness

Black and Yellow

On The Floor

Me and You

Why You Gotta Be So Mean?

A Whole Load Of Happiness, A Whole Lot Of Fun

Bloody Hell

Moments

Lose My Mind

Light

For The First Time

Way Back Into Love

Old Spice Commercial

Gone

Burnt

Human

TS

Don't Let Me Fall

Catch The Winds In Your Sails

Say "Ooh La La"

H.A.W.T.

All Things Fancy & Everything Else In Between

Coldplay's The Scientist

Rainbows

Teachers' Day Celebration

Pre-Bday/Bday

A Grieving Phase

I Love August

I Finally Did It

I Go GAGA Over Them

Afra The Gothic Lolita aka The Rocker

Kak Aliz's Engagement

Can I Have This Dance?

Dancer On A Mission

A Dreamer's Tale

Yay Me

The More We Get Together

Feeding Farm Frenzy

There's Nothing Else I Can Say

The 5 Stages of Grief

All That Moves

My Grad

What Hurts The Most

Do U Wanna Ask Me Anything?

ER Gang @ Barrage

Protective

Down

My Sayangs

In My Head

Guess Who's Back?

More Than Words

Apart

Solo to Sentosa

Do you remember YOU+ME?

Because I'm Only Human

Undisclosed Desires

Why did i place my heart down on the floor?

Suddenly, The World Is Not Beautiful....

Lunch With The Ladies (ala Breakfast at Tiffany's)

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